Whom Shall I Fear

To say I am not afraid would be a lie. I don't know the implications of having a PET scan in early pregnancy. Of all the times...

Fear wells up in me frequently each day as I allow myself to think about all the what ifs that have not yet come to be.

It is as if God stands over me with a "fear extinguisher". Sort of like a fire extinguisher, but whenever fear starts to well up in me, He sprays me with it, and, truly, my fear disappears.

He has given me "Whom Shall I Fear", by Chris Tomlin, as a song and I am worshipping Him with all my heart as I sit here at Marshall's first of three baseball games today:

You hear me when I call
You are my morning song
Though darkness fills the night
It cannot hide the light

Whom shall I fear

You crush the enemy
Underneath my feet
You are my sword and shield
Though troubles linger still

Whom shall I fear

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

My strength is in Your name
For You alone can save
You will deliver me
Yours is the victory

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in Your hands
I'm holding on to Your promises

You are faithful
You are faithful

And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the hold world in your hands
I'm hold on to your promises

You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

What I Was Thinking

All week I have been thinking about what I would write after I received my scan results. How I wasn't worried, but trusted God to give me the grace for what came today. I fully expected to receive a negative result, but knew if something was there, God would be there, BIG TIME.

After hearing the all clear from my doctor today, the last thing I expected was to look at my detailed scan report and see something "positive"...

To quote the report: "minimal physiological uptake in the endometrium".

My doctor said nothing about this, but when I saw it, I knew immediately - I'm pregnant!!

I actually did a test the morning of my scan. But I either misread it or it was a false negative, because I did another one immediately and it was positive.

Sigh.

This was no where NEAR what I thought God would have to give me grace for. But I know without a doubt that He will.

Molly

www.thedustbunnychronicles.blogspot.com

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