God is changing my heart again.
I am now nearly a year from being healed from the burden of my grief of losing Michael. And a year from feeling called to adopt a child.
Now I am feeling called NOT to adopt.
I think God wants me to have another baby.
My body is healed. I have waited faithfully (although not always gracefully.) And my heart is not aching for a Guatemalan baby anymore.
It would be nice just to say things were the same. That I would keep being patient and that eventually Guatemala would open up and we would find Hope there.
But I think, maybe, God was just having me wait to get to this point of health.
I am prayerful that God would even give me my "Christmas present" of not having to do chemo in December because I am pregnant.
I have no doubt, though, that His plan is perfect.
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